Two things on my mind

I had a rough day Thursday.  You see, I'm a planner.  As long as I can plan, I stay sane.  So I had planned, per the doctor's words, that by this Friday, I'd have the results of my biopsy.  I'd have a diagnosis.  I'd have a plan for treatment.  Earlier in the week, they moved my appointment up to Thursday.  GREAT.  Even better.  Then Thursday morning came, I got a call from the nurse & she said my results weren't in yet & wouldn't be until later next week.  I'm leaving for Utah on Tuesday for 2 weeks.  That means 2 1/2 more weeks of not knowing exactly what is going on in my body.  2 weeks of not knowing what's in store for my future.  I was pretty ticked.

So what did I do?  I headed over to the nail salon & got myself and nice mani/pedi.  The DELUXE version.  And it felt good.  But it didn't FEEL good.  I was still pretty unhappy.  I was cranky with my kids all day & just in a mood.

Then the evening came.  I was visited by a friend who brought me dinner.  While that friend was there, another friend called to ask if I could stay at their house with their kids that night (see post below).  I like being needed & feeling useful so I was more than happy to go.  I got very little sleep that night.  But it made me happy.  I was  helping my friends & cuddling a cute baby.

Why do I always turn to chocolate, mani/pedi's, shopping, or laziness when life gets me down?  Its doing things for others that really brings me happiness.  Maybe next time I'll remember.  I said Maybe.

Onto the second thing... my heart & mind are worried about someone I love.  She is young & going through hard things.  I can almost feel her anguish.  I'm loosing sleep over it & it makes me want to cry.  This makes me terrified for my children to grow into teenagers & young adults.  I am never going to sleep.  Ever.

Comments

Kristie said…
It's true - when your kids are teenagers, you will lose a lot of sleep. They are horrid creatures!

Signed,
A Mom Having a Rough Time
7:58 AM
Rachelle said…
im sorry friend. i don't know what's going on! sounds like you feel the same way. thinking of you!
2:49 PM
Christiansen's Hog Heaven said…
Good luck with everything! I hope it all works out, I will be praying for you! Have a great time in Utah.
Love,
Hollie
10:37 PM
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